my most precious desire

A d e s i r e
a light, feather like,
tender desire..
born from a glance ,
it floated in the air
lightly a bit here, a bit there
before even i could realize,
slowly it dissolved into the inner me..
it floated and giggled
through the dark rooms of my soul
brightening all the way..
my sweet little desire,
that veered my mind
from all those beliefs
those black and dark beliefs..
the desire,
which changed the way
i stared at the world
and poked me to smile the moments..

some cautioned,
it would never happen
and some threatened
they wdn't stand beside
but i knew
it would happen if
you believed in me
and if we believed in my desire
i dreamt the smiling me
coz you were beside me
in the dreams, we were
smiling,
smiling together
it was so beautiful..
But now!
Now that you
don't believe in my desire,
now that you act as if
i did just sin and not desire,
with tears in my eyes
and with a sagging ocean inside,
i am blowing this feather away
away from me
away and away to a strange
unknown land where i can never see..
never see my desire
this little white feathered desire
my most precious desire..

Another Shoe! This time it's at Manmohan Singh

Came across this news today. Another audacious shoe throw act at a public figure. This time it was Dr Manmohan Singh at the receiving end. What could be the reason he did it? I wonder whether it has got anything to do with his knowledge about Dr Singh's govt policies. Was he frustrated because of that? I don't think so. To me this is more of an ignorant, useless petty act which has its roots on how media portrays such incidents including the very first one involving George Bush. Probably those images still lingers in everyone's mind and it makes them feel you would be portrayed as a hero? or atleast you will get noticed?

My belief only became stronger with what happened subsequently. In the end, it was the same tune from Dr Singh too. He called up the police big shots and told them to "Forgive" the culprit. Chidambaram too had "forgiven" the one who had hurled a shoe at him. At this moment, I also remember some other great acts of forgiveness that we had done. The guys who had attacked our very soul of Indian Democracy, the parliament, then the guy who killed hundreds of innocent civilians in Mumbai. They are all basking in our great acts of forgiveness absolutely scath free.

May be Mr Singh does not mind "forgiving" someone who throws a shoe at him, but as a citizen I feel ashamed that a petty youth who indulges in such an irresponsible act of malligning the post of Prime Minister of India is let free. How long will India keep forgiving everyone and let everyone throw their shoes on our face.

Tum Se Hi

Found this beautiful movie song to be no less than a poem. This is from the film Jab We Met.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sUh4RBD-5E

Na Hai Yeh Pana, Na Khona Hi Hai
Tera Na Hona Jane, Kyun Hona Hi Hai
Tum Se Hi Din Hota Hai, Surmaiye Shaam Aati,
Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi
Har Ghadi Saans Aati Hai, Zindagi Kehlati Hai,
Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi
Na Hai Yeh Pana, Na Khona Hi Hai
Tera Na Hona Jane, Kyun Hona Hi Hai

Aankhon Mein Ankhein Teri, Bahoon Mein Baahein Teri
Mera Na Mujhmein Kuch Raha, Hua Kya
Baaton Mein Baatein Teri, Raatein Saugatein Teri
Kyun Tera Sab Yeh Ho Gaya, Hua Kya
Main Kahin Bhi Jata Hoon, Tumse Hi Mil Jata Hoon,
Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi
Shoor Mein Khamoshi Hai, Thodi Si Behoshi Hai,
Tum Se Hi, Tum Se Hi

Aadha Sa Wada Kabhi, Aadhe Se Zyada Kabhi
Jee Chaahe Kar Lu Is Tarah Wafa Ka
Chhode Na Chhoote Kabhi, Tode Na Tute Kabhi
Jo Dhaga Tumse Jud Gaya Wafa Ka
Main Tera Sarmaya Hoon, Jo Bhi Main Ban Paya Hoon,
Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi
Raaste Mil Jaate Hai, Manzile Mil Jaati Hai,
Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi

Na Hai Yeh Paana, Na Khona Hi Hai
Tera Na Hona Jaane Kyun Hona Hi Hai

Broken Relationship - Phases

Two words well define the entire cycle of attachment in love. From the time a man and woman fall in love and till the time they separate.

Attachment & D e t a c h m e n t

The beautiful journey of love travels through the following..

1] Attached Attachment
2] Detached Attachment
3] Attached Detachment
4] Detached Detachment

Attached Attachment: Probably the most beautiful phase in love where romance is all over and we are ever charged up. Emotions become multi amplified ending up in more love or discord which in itself churns out more love. We will miss our loved one every second of the day. We talk to her/him every minute of the day within ourselves. World outside looks more like a background for our love story.

Detached Attachment: A gradual progression from Attached Attachment. The initial crave for each other is lost. They start seeing each other's weaknesses or rather those characteristics which they are not very fond of. This makes it tough for them to want each other every moment. Though underlying love still exists, they would prefer to keep a comfortable space between them which is in the better interest for their love to survive.

Love if not broken travels only till these two phases and fortunate are those who don't go beyond this..

Attached Detachment: This is a painful phase. There is no attachment between the couple anymore. Still they act as if they are attached. For whom? may be, to be loyal to the love which once existed between them! This becomes even more painful if one of the couple is still in any of the previous phases and the other has moved forward. Because he might still love her, but he/she would know very well that she/he does not love him/her anymore. People say that love is blind which is so incorrect. May be love makes one blind as in one might not be able to see the world around. But love makes you see even the minutest of the nuances of the person whom you love.

Detached Detachment: No more formalities in here. Couple would have realized and accepted that there is nothing left between them. They would feel it is better to keep away from each other for good than withstanding a boring and highly compromised relationship.

i long...

i long
to be rebelled at
to be laughed at
to be controlled
to be mistaken
to be fooled
to be shushed
to be stereotyped
to be distanced
to be criticized
to be ignored
to be hurt
to be completely defeated
because it is the sweet you....

Ye Nasha

ye sharaab bhi paani lagne lage
kahan inmein vo nasha
kahan inmein vo nasha..
jo nasha teri yadon mein hein

- PV